So, I think I finally have something bloggable to share. I actually have a couple things-I'll share about lessons learned in the cold last night another time (and it actually ties into this one)...
So I was working yesterday, getting random stuff done in my office listening to my IPod on random shuffle. And up pops Beth Moore and one of her "Esther" sessions. I went through the study late last summer/ early fall. Anyway, as I'm listening to her speak truth to my heart I thought of a friend. I texted her to see if she'd be interested in it. She said yes and this is some of the conversation via texts from her. (She just had a bible study last week on a few biblical women including Esther. ). The conversation was a Godly divine appointment and touched me to the core. Some days God's truth speaks, some days it screams. Yesterday it screamed...
My friend:
"Three women who found contentment in God... Hannah was an even though woman ...even if God did not give her a child she would be content and worship Him Esther was an even if woman...even if it meant losing her life she would protect her people and worship Him....Martha was an even though woman as well...she did not get caught up in the world around her she was just happy sitting at His feet. It was pretty awesome. Contentment is realizing who God is; that contentment lies not in our circumstances but in our convictions; not in our men but our mindsets; not in OUR abilities but in GOD's almightiness... Contentment is found in our relationship with God the more time spent with him the more wordly matters Fade into the background."
My reply:
"So I'm sitting at my desk working and reading your texts. And crying. And here is the song that pops up playing on my IPod as you speak truth about contentment to my heart. Our God is NOT random, and He does pay intimate attention to our life and our hearts and what He has best for us. Even when I fail to believe that. "
True Things
BY ANDREW OSENGA, JJ AND DAVID HELLER
I'm not the clothes I'm wearing
I'm not a photograph
I'm not the car I drive
I'm not the money I make
I'm not the things I lack
I'm not the songs that I write
I am . who I am
I am who I am
There are true things inside of me
I have been afraid to see
I believe, help my unbelief
Would you say again what you said to me
I am loved and I am free
I believe, help my unbelief
I'm not the house I live in
I'm not the man I love
I'm not the mistakes that I carry
I'm not the food that I don't eat
I'm not what I'm above
I'm not my scars and my history
There are true things inside of me
I have been afraid to see
I believe, help my unbelief
Would you say again what you said to me
I am loved and I am free
I believe, help my unbelief
To your love I'm waking up
In your love I'm waking up
Happenstance? Coincidence? I think not.
God is so good to us. His mercy and grace never fail. And He does speak- if we will listen to the whispers or shouts. And once again I am grateful for friends to share this road with. Friends who love Him and are willing to share their hearts.
That's all I have to say. I'm still overwhelmed....
